Whit.

side note

Thu, 09 May 2013 08:51:47 -0500

how are you supposed to be strong for someone who was always your strength?
when it destroys all of you, knowing it destroys them more.. how do you keep yourself together when they need you most and you need them too.
I can only pray God can give me the strength during this time.

markings left behind

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 20:41:51 -0500

when I think about my life and the things I’ve seen and experienced; it amazes me. it amazes me to think back at all the people who have become such a huge part of my life and who I am. a lot of people have come, stayed, and are still with me today. many others, have come, stayed for a little while, and then they had to walk back out for various of reasons. but each person, leaving their own markings on my heart and soul to take with me forever. it’s an unfathomable thing these moments we have with certain people, these moments we are having at this very present time. we don’t realize the memories we make, the markings we are leaving on our heart that is slowly changing us to the woman/man we were meant to be.
I’ve had a beautiful life; filled with more blessings and happiness than one girl could ever ask for.
I know life gets hard, life has storms that sometimes you don’t understand how it could ever lighten up again; and these are moments you rebuke the storm and rain and refuse to let it pour. you choose sunny days, happy days; even when your view on life is a whirlwind of pain, you fight and you soar through. God has given me strength when I had none to hold me up anymore. I have found myself on my knees so many times in my life; and those moments are the moments of impact that affect all that we are.
we forget that God never said that life would be easy; He said, “in this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33)
we so easily forget in troubled times, to have faith. to hold on. to persevere when things just don’t seem to be looking up.
all we gotta do is look back on the life we have had, the dark moments we have found our way out of and the beautiful moments that we will never forget.
we have so much to be thankful for, even if it means fighting a storm from this point on.. don’t forget the life you’ve lived thus far and all the people you’ve encountered.
each one leaving their own mark..

Photo

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 22:06:34 -0500

Photo

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 21:18:13 -0500

I LOVE THESE PEOPLE. & will never stop loving each and every...

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 22:37:43 -0600

I LOVE THESE PEOPLE.
& will never stop loving each and every one of them.

exactly

Wed, 06 Mar 2013 18:02:17 -0600

exactly

coffee shop ramble

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 16:40:24 -0600

I sit and read. I read my past notes, books, the Book. I get revelation after revelation of how I am called to live out my life but I soon stand up and walk away. I forget; I let myself forget. I soon become timid and feel intimidated by what is asked of me. everything. to sacrifice all of my life, my family, my friends, my possessions, my dreams; to follow His. I know it’s worth it but this modern age has caused me to second guess walking away from all that I’ve been blessed with. the people around me make me second guess and I soon forget the truth I’ve been reading in the words written I’m red. I don’t want to forget; I want to live a sacrificed life and I want to count my costs everyday. but how so I get passed my doubts and fears? for they are not of God but of this world, of the people this world is filled with.
I’m afraid of all the things I’ve done wrong or that I will do wrong; of all the moments I fall short everyday. I wonder if I’m worth it, if I’m strong enough to withstand the current that constantly overtakes me.
I see the light but I’ve stood still for too long that I’ve forgotten what it felt like to run. to embrace, to love with all of my heart, to give through love and not obligation, to sacrifice who I for who he is calling me to be.
I am selfish, insecure, jealous, fearful, and distraught to think to walk away.
until I truly grasp the concept of eternity, of the treasures that await that don’t compare to this flesh and this world… and when that moment comes, I feel strength and will being poured within me.
it’s moments like that that destroy every doubt…
but words are not enough for:
“let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and truth”..

TRUE LOVE REQUIRES SACRIFICE
and a love like this requires a sacrifice for everything ..

Kathmandu, Nepal. View from the balcony.

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 21:17:02 -0600

Kathmandu, Nepal.
View from the balcony.

villages in Nepal. a piece of my heart was left there..

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 21:13:46 -0600

villages in Nepal.
a piece of my heart was left there..

snakes. side of the street. somewhere in India.

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 21:13:08 -0600

snakes.
side of the street.
somewhere in India.

Sobrenenam from Dharamsala, India. He has leprosy, but a...

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 21:09:56 -0600

Sobrenenam from Dharamsala, India.
He has leprosy, but a beautiful soul.
praying for you good friend.

thinking back.. Taj Mahal was sure something to see… even...

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 21:07:56 -0600

thinking back..
Taj Mahal was sure something to see… even if it was 130 degrees and humid

surrounded-by-people: one day..

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 21:15:26 -0600

surrounded-by-people:

one day..

something more.

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 22:28:41 -0600

in the deepest part of the souls, we know there’s something more. something more than the world we have narrowed ourselves too, but we force ourselves to push it out of our minds down to the very darkness of our soul. to forget, to let go, to not think that way. we numb ourselves to what we already know in fear of facing it, in fear of not being able to ever get there or do more.
if money did not matter, if you didn’t care what society or anyone else thought, what would you accomplish? what are those dreams you’ve forced yourself to let go of in fear of being let down to never get there?
well, my friends I’m here to tell you that those dreams are possible. and maybe I need to remember that again myself. to remember that God has dreamt bigger dreams for each us then we could ever dream for ourselves; but if we constantly push it off and say “impossible”, impossible it will be. but with God, nothing is impossible. you’re “impossible” is a mirror image of your fear of never getting there, of getting let down.
swallow your fear and walk toward your dreams, we have less than 100 years… why spend it doing something you absolutely dread?
find your way by following your desires, by following your dreams.

..because that’s when you truly find yourself.

chaos

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 22:25:43 -0600

chaotic might not even be the right word to explain this life of mine.
every day is a struggle of finding enough time in the day to accomplish all I need and still have time to think of other thoughts besides work and school. I have three weeks. three weeks before I can finally let my mind rest. three weeks until I am done with this horrid semester and can really enjoy some time off.
chaos puts things in perspective because the biggest challenge of all is finding the perseverance and character to get through chaos. it takes motivation, but even more motivation not to complain about it but find joy in it.
that’s been my challenge, to help myself find joy when things just aren’t easy. some days I fail.. but some days I don’t. I just continue to pray for strength, wisdom, and direction.
I miss the old days, where worries were but a joke.
welcome to reality my dear.

good coversation and a great view. always up for that. x

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 22:13:01 -0600

good coversation and a great view. always up for that. x

I BELIEVE.

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 22:28:59 -0500

I believe in miracles.
& I experienced a miracle today.
Neilah, your fight has inspired so many of us to fight even more…
& taught us to never give up hope- because man’s word does not compare to God’s promises.
Oh Lord, thank you.

"when the world says give up, hope whispers try one more time"

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 22:22:07 -0500

“when the world says give up, hope whispers try one more time”

"you don’t have a soul. you are a soul. you have a body."

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 23:01:20 -0500

“you don’t have a soul.
you are a soul.
you have a body.”

- C.S Lewis

"I think all Christians would agree with me if I said that though Christianity seems at first to be..."

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 00:12:39 -0500

““I think all Christians would agree with me if I said that though Christianity seems at first to be all about morality, all about duties and rules and guilt and virtue, yet it leads you on, out of all that, into something beyond. One has a glimpse of a country where they do not talk of those things, except perhaps as a joke. Everyone there is filled full with what we should call goodness as a mirror is filled with light. But they do not call it goodness. They do not call it anything. They are not thinking of it. They are too busy looking at the source from which it comes. But this is near the stage where the road passes over the rim of our world. No one’s eyes can see very far beyond that: lots of people’s eyes can see further than mine.””

- C.S Lewis