how are you supposed to be strong for someone who was always your strength?
when it destroys all of you, knowing it destroys them more.. how do you keep yourself together when they need you most and you need them too.
I can only pray God can give me the strength during this time.
when I think about my life and the things I’ve seen and experienced; it amazes me. it amazes me to think back at all the people who have become such a huge part of my life and who I am. a lot of people have come, stayed, and are still with me today. many others, have come, stayed for a little while, and then they had to walk back out for various of reasons. but each person, leaving their own markings on my heart and soul to take with me forever. it’s an unfathomable thing these moments we have with certain people, these moments we are having at this very present time. we don’t realize the memories we make, the markings we are leaving on our heart that is slowly changing us to the woman/man we were meant to be.
I’ve had a beautiful life; filled with more blessings and happiness than one girl could ever ask for.
I know life gets hard, life has storms that sometimes you don’t understand how it could ever lighten up again; and these are moments you rebuke the storm and rain and refuse to let it pour. you choose sunny days, happy days; even when your view on life is a whirlwind of pain, you fight and you soar through. God has given me strength when I had none to hold me up anymore. I have found myself on my knees so many times in my life; and those moments are the moments of impact that affect all that we are.
we forget that God never said that life would be easy; He said, “in this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33)
we so easily forget in troubled times, to have faith. to hold on. to persevere when things just don’t seem to be looking up.
all we gotta do is look back on the life we have had, the dark moments we have found our way out of and the beautiful moments that we will never forget.
we have so much to be thankful for, even if it means fighting a storm from this point on.. don’t forget the life you’ve lived thus far and all the people you’ve encountered.
each one leaving their own mark..
(via cchrist07)
(Source: wolf-teeth, via barefoot-traveller)
I LOVE THESE PEOPLE.
& will never stop loving each and every one of them.
exactly
(via cchrist07)
I sit and read. I read my past notes, books, the Book. I get revelation after revelation of how I am called to live out my life but I soon stand up and walk away. I forget; I let myself forget. I soon become timid and feel intimidated by what is asked of me. everything. to sacrifice all of my life, my family, my friends, my possessions, my dreams; to follow His. I know it’s worth it but this modern age has caused me to second guess walking away from all that I’ve been blessed with. the people around me make me second guess and I soon forget the truth I’ve been reading in the words written I’m red. I don’t want to forget; I want to live a sacrificed life and I want to count my costs everyday. but how so I get passed my doubts and fears? for they are not of God but of this world, of the people this world is filled with.
I’m afraid of all the things I’ve done wrong or that I will do wrong; of all the moments I fall short everyday. I wonder if I’m worth it, if I’m strong enough to withstand the current that constantly overtakes me.
I see the light but I’ve stood still for too long that I’ve forgotten what it felt like to run. to embrace, to love with all of my heart, to give through love and not obligation, to sacrifice who I for who he is calling me to be.
I am selfish, insecure, jealous, fearful, and distraught to think to walk away.
until I truly grasp the concept of eternity, of the treasures that await that don’t compare to this flesh and this world… and when that moment comes, I feel strength and will being poured within me.
it’s moments like that that destroy every doubt…
but words are not enough for:
“let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and truth”..
TRUE LOVE REQUIRES SACRIFICE
and a love like this requires a sacrifice for everything ..
Kathmandu, Nepal.
View from the balcony.
villages in Nepal.
a piece of my heart was left there..
snakes.
side of the street.
somewhere in India.
